Atlanta – Josh McKague

So I’m headed home. Left Josh McKague‘s place an hour outside Atlanta midday today. I’m staying in Charlotte again tonight. Josh is a pretty sweet guy. I got plenty of time to hang out and get to know him and his family and friends. I look forward to getting to know him better in the future and following his work as a filmmaker.

Thanks Josh, Elizabeth, and Mathias, for having me in your home and befriending me. It was such a great time, and I look forward to staying in contact with you and hopefully doing things together in the future.

But for now, farewell and goodnight.

With all things, Hope.

Photo by Parker Fitzgerald of the Free Road Scholars

The last few days have been fairly overwhelming. So many things to plan, so many things to get done, editing and all. It’s been a whirlwind of business combined with happiness.

There are so many things I am so excited about! One of the main ones in planning a project I will be doing in Colombia in April. I haven’t released anything yet on that, because some things have to be completed first before the world begins to know what is going on. I am very excited to share it with you in the next several weeks.

From that, I am recording some music with my friend, John Poole, who is just amazing. He is recording the music for the Inlet Dance Theatre video I am putting together now. Keep a look out for that video being released here in the next 2 weeks!

From there, I am trying to find work. I have bills coming up, and so my days have been full with talking to friends and family and trying to find places that I can work at to get the needed funds. Thankfully, most of it has come, and I will make it through. I’m so thankful for this. AND. The cool thing about it is I didn’t have to get a second job, because other video shoots have come through, and I am excited to be working on a new projects and making the needed money to survive! ;) ha

In a few weeks I’ll be heading off the Atlanta with my friend, Brittany, to see some awesome people I haven’t been pleased to meet yet. I’ll be meeting the person that inspired me to start being a videographer, and encouraged me (without him knowing it) to just DO IT, get started and keep learning from there. And it worked :) It is going to be so good to have a road trip after all this other madness is over and things are taken care of. I’ll also be stopping through Charlotte to see some friends I haven’t seen for quite a long time. They have lived in India for I think a year and a half, if not two years. Just an amazing family that inspires me to know end.

So from there, there are many more things I could share with you now, but I just can’t seem to pull them out of thin air.

So farewell. More to be posted soon! Gah, so many things!

Lauren’s new place

Lauren’s new place. I love it there. Hope I can return soon! Miss her so much :(

More on her new place.

a desire of a man

So I don’t make many posts of just talking about my life. So here it goes…

It’s been a good couple of weeks, in and out of myself, traveling, searching, loving. I am just kind of stuck in a rut, it seems sometimes… other times, I am so uber excited about life, and what is to come. 

One thing that has been on my mind lately is money… I work at Chick-fil-a, and it is O.K. money, but I know I can’t do that for the rest of my life, and I don’t really want too… What I would really LOVE to do, as I’m sure most people do, is travel, travel, travel. It is hard to do that these days though, and actually be able to eat… I know that I am called to be a missionary, a good father (but not just to my own children, but as a spiritual father for God’s purposes…), an blogger, a videographer (but not for money), and of course, as I have mentioned, a world traveler; I want to make a difference in this world. I’d love to start a mission to help people around the world, in poverty, with disease, help get people out of slavery, being a father, love, be affectionate towards, and be compassionate to the world, giving up of myself to those who need God, and who need to be encouraged. I have been told I am going to be a man who blesses, lives with, or is helpful towards, the most insignificant people of the world. And with all my heart, I want what God wants for me, I know that is this. I feel it all within my bones, within my eyes, within my mind, within my gut, the utmost parts of my body, and my heart (which is the most strong). I desire so much to live with God, be with God, loving Him, being with Him, being best friends, and loving others while I love God. I want it with all that I am, I could cry for years, for eternity, if I don’t do it. If I don’t strive for these things, I know I will cry for eternity. 

So as I live in this moment, day by day, striving to be the person God wants me to be, messing up, confessing my sinful ways, and loving those around me in intricate ways, ways I hope no one else has loved before. It is as if I will burst, blow, die if I don’t do what I know God wants to do through me, in me. I have to do it. 

Pray for me, that all these things, my flesh mostly, that make me fall, that make me fail, leave, and I find strength in God. 

With tears, many tears, I ask for you to pray for me, that God will be in me, and I will be in Him, and that I will do what He does, what He desires, what His heart longs for. Thats all I want. 

 

And in these final moments of this day,

I know what I must do.

I must pray, I must earnestly pray,

for God’s mercy,

for God’s grace,

for God’s forgiveness of this broken state,

I must earnestly pray,

pray, pray,

for His return to me,

for my return to Him,

for the end of myself has come,

at the end of this day,

and for it all to never come back.